How are you? I’m a little nervous, because today, we’re venturing into the land of my love life; hold on tight, because this is complicated.
Basically… I’ve had no LONG TERM relationship before; two or three weeks at a time, and the whole “it’s not you, it’s me” break up.
*Before I edited this, I’d actually written “it’s not me, it’s you”. Oops…*
Yes, I’ve had crushes, and not just celebrity ones, although those do exist too, thank you. there’s a girl I know, who I like, and is a very close friend. We’ll call her H, for the sake of a name.
On those fun Facebook tests that you get, she’s always written that we’re too good friends for a relationship. And it’s true: we are very good friends. she’s one of the only people who I trust absolutely, and who has seen me in my darkest places, at my worst times. I like her, sure, but i’m not sure if I like like her, or if she’s more like a sister.
Anyway, this evening, she’s just offered me tickets to a concert, in Southampton [which is not where she’s from by the way], to see an artist, Nathan Grisdale, who I like. On top of this, she offered to pay for half of my ticket, because she wanted me to go, I guess. Of course, I said I’d ask my parents, but it should all be fine, and I’m pretty excited about that to be honest; it is always fun staying with H.
My question though: is this romance, or is my brain just jumping to conclusions? I don’t know if a romantic gesture would make me pleased, or frightened, or confused. She’s one of the people who I just don’t get panic attacks around, because she’s just so calm and with it, and knows me inside out. She knows what I like, and what frightens me, and what makes me absolutely freak. But, is this romance? Or am I overthinking it, as usual? I’ll go, regardless, but I can’t help but ponder…