It’s back to school today, and I’m worried. I guess over the last couple of weeks, I have been anxiety-free, because there’s been no school. Now I’m going back, things are different. I tricked myself over this holiday, told myself that I was fine – that it was fine. Now, I don’t believe myself.
What if I’m bullied? I guess that’s the biggest thing for me. I’m not popular, nor am I particularly interested in being so. I’ve got nothing unique to offer, nothing good to like. And so, that makes me an ideal target.
What if I fail? What if I can’t cope with stress, with work? What if my exams go wrong, or the answers to any and all of the questions just float out of my head, as they always do? What if I make a fool of myself in front of everyone?
Sorry for this. I needed to write it down.