How are you all? Thank you SO SO SO much for your fantastic support on my stress-related post earlier. You’ll be glad to hear that the meeting went well, and is all over now. I survived, I didn’t have a panic attack during the meeting, and I’m smiling and listening to music now.
After all that, however, I have a problem. It’s not so much a problem as a ‘situation’, the quotes being inserted for grand effect. I’m not sure there’s anything that can be done to help me here, but I need to get it down somewhere; here’s the place I’m afraid!
It’s taken me quite a bit of courage to write this. I’m always scared that someone from school will find this, and read this, and figure out that i am, well, me. Think: you might be at my school. You might sit next to me in class, or behind me in assembly every week. But regardless, I know a lot of my friends wouldn’t judge me for this, but it’s always worrying that the wrong person might find this; I really wouldn’t want that in this situation.
In one of my lessons, there’s a boy. I won’t write his names, for both his and my benefits. For the sake of ease, we’ll call him Bridge.
Bridge is the same age as me, and in my class at school. He’s what you might call the class clown; tells a lot of jokes, and generally gets a laugh. I think that if he didn’t tell jokes, he’d probably be the bullied type, but his comedic ways keep him safe from that. Unlike most class clowns, he doesn’t tel jokes to avert notice from his lack of academic ability; he’s intelligent, and good at school. He has people saying some horrible things behind his back, but nothing too awful: some people say he touches people up under the tables and such.
My issue: I kind of fancy him.
There. It’s out there.
My next issue: I don’t think he’s gay/bi
Big problem for me.
I really do fancy him. He’s just so genuine, and funny, and gets my sense of humour. He’s weird, but in a good way, and doesn’t really care about others judging him for his inner weirdness that he chooses to display openly. Obviously, looks aren’t my first priority, being blind, but people say he’s ‘alright looking’ in te looks department.
Right, so it’s out there. I’m sorry, and if there’s anything you guys can suggest… well, I’m all ears.